sexonatable's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Up at the top! My mom just got home from the hospital. Everything went well... now it's back to pretending I don't have a man or whatever else I do when my mom is here. I am not sure how things are going to be.. They are going to be different I will have to take care of my mom more now, and ofcourse I can't have my babe over any more. I have been thinking a lot in this time of aloneness. I have thought about what I really want and whats really important to me. I really want to be happy. But my happy and my partners happy are two seperate things. I do want to change I don't want to cheat no matter how hot the guy and no matter how bad I think I want to hump him. I am going to remain faithful to my man. I also need to do something with myself. I am going to get a better job and get back to the top where I belong. No more of this bottom feeding bullshit I have been doing. Last of all.. I am going to wait for the best thing that has ever happened to me to happen. I am going to wait for that stupid someone to leave so I can have the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. I am in love and I plan to remain that way. So therefore when that thing goes away.. I will be free to love and to do things with the man that I love. Thats all I think now I am going to bitch at my mom for saying this house isint clean when I damn well know it is! I HATE PARENTS! 3:31 p.m. - 2005-04-12 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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