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I'm Happy!

I'm about to be 38! WTF HOW!?

The boy and I ended up moving into his house. The ex decided she didn't want to live here so we did lol. At first it was super weird and I was very like I don't know if I want this....but it's not so bad. Things are very much becoming us rather than them in the house and we are happy. Like grossly unimaginable happy. Like I find myself wondering if I have ever been this happy in my life. I don't think I have. I think that I thought I was and that maybe at that point I was as happy as I had been but this is different. I seemed to have found myself so to speak. I have fixed my bullshit relationship patterns and issues and worked through why I'm such a weirdo and why I do the things I do and I am more myself than I have ever been and I'm fucking happy! Happy with myself and happy in this relationship. It's like hanging out with my best friend every day but he's hot and I get to kiss him and touch his parts. I have dreaded being 40 my entire life but now I find myself welcoming it as it gets closer. Thinking it may be the best years of my entire life. Everything is pretty great over here.

I didn't turn out to be to bad. I turned into a good grown up and a half way decent person. If you have read early entries you would know that could have been very very different. It took a long time to get here and lots of guidance along the way but it was worth it.

10:32 p.m. - 2023-09-12


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